Just need to love Him

I have been struggling with something recently. I have been struggling to discern if God doesnt answer yes to a prayer, is it a “no now” or a “no forever” answer?  I do understand that it is not something that I should be overly concerned with since God wants us to focus on the now rather then the later.  So, if I will stop complaining, I could just simply take his no for what it is…a no.

But I’ve been struggling with how God could say no to something that was bringing me so much spiritual growth (please, try to stay with my ambiguity).  Ah, but it is not my place to really decide what is best for me.  That has been hard to understand as well..

When God called us to himself.  When God called us to be his disciples he called every  part of us